I crave you more and more each day, and as I slowly feel you slipping away and forgetting me as I go to sleep at night, I feel an almost unbearable pain in my chest. Tears streaming down my face I lie to myself, and say that you miss me. That you won’t be able to be happy with somebody else so quickly. But deep down, I know I have lost you. And as you might be okay with that fact, I am not. During the day it’s bad enough, with little bursts of a pain in my chest every time my phone gets a text and it’s not you. But at night, all I am left with as I try to fall asleep and hold back my tears are the thoughts of you forgetting me. Even though you are all that I think about all day long. Thanks for letting me fall so hard, then leaving me here like this.
My heart aches a lot tonight. I am not crying myself to sleep which is nice. I miss you so much. I miss us. Why don’t you? :/ I wonder if you still think about me all the time. If you want to text me and just stop yourself. That is what I want to believe and what I hope for deep down. But I doubt that’s the case. I bet you are with that other girl right now probably cuddling with her and saying sweet things to her like you always did with me. Now I sit alone in my bed, and I wish you would want me again. But you don’t. And it’s killing me. The pain in my chest right now feels so heavy and so..just sad. :( I miss you.
I don’t even know what to think. I know there isn’t anything left for us. You don’t want to be with me, that is clear. But I am so heartbroken even after 2 months and I don’t know what to do to stop it. I have tried talking to other guys. I even went on a date! The entire time all I could think about was you. And it is ridiculous. I am making myself look so pathetic like a love sick puppy dog and I hate it. But I just can’t stop thinking about how every day I think about you non stop and everyday you forget about me and us more and more until soon you will be able to look at me and feel nothing. I know it’s going to happen and just that thought alone breaks my heart. Especially because I can’t do it. I can’t let go of that invisible hope that your gunna text me one day and just say everything is going to be normal again. I’m so exhausted from crying every night and just being sad. When will this end. I hope soon darling. Because i am going insane.